While I like to think I am fairly good at making decisions, I become paralyzed in moments requiring a definitive yes or no.  Every time I take a personality test the results show a high need for collaboration, and that’s exactly how I make decisions.  If you read my previous blog post, Two Pink Lines, I mentioned my first reaction after taking the pregnancy test, I wanted help deciding how to tell Patrick! Typically after involving another in my decision, I can see their perspective easily, and my mind is swayed; however, a second opinion will send me back to analysis paralysis - the kind that makes my heart race, and my temperature rise.  My mom always said this was my OCD coming out; however, I think it's my underlying worry that I will disappoint someone or myself if I choose the wrong thing. The funny thing about my indecisiveness is, if I live in grey area for too long, I make definitive decisions, hard and fast: I drop all logic, and I make the decision based on what I feel in my gut. 

A year ago, I was craving some time away from Atlanta to recharge my batteries and Mindbody BOLD was on the horizon.  I talked to my now husband about going; surprisingly, he didn’t think it was a great idea.  Maybe it was his opposing opinion, but something inside me said, “you need this” and minutes later I had a hotel, flight, and ticket to the Mindbody BOLD Conference. I thought Patrick would have appreciated my decisiveness; boy was I wrong. Patrick was in a fury, and he had my best friend in on whatever it was he had cooked up.  I had completely forgotten that Katie Allen had invited both Patrick and me aboard her client’s yachts (in Savannah) the same weekend as BOLD.  When I told her my enthusiastic news, she replied, “I understand, but this is really important you need to be there.”  I let a couple days pass, Katie and Patrick grew more persuasive, and I was growing more and more frustrated when something clicked! Patrick was proposing!!!!  Without acting like I knew exactly what was going on, I dropped my unwavering decision and told Patrick I would try to make it work.  I sent an email to Mindbody, canceled my hotel, and told Southwest what I thought was happening, and everyone refunded me, giving me their wishes of excitement!  Attempting to be half-way pissed off for the next few days about postponing my inspiration vacation; meanwhile, trying to contain my excitement was one of the most challenging positions I’ve ever been in.  Come Thursday, I was headed to Lake Oconee (not Savannah) for the big proposal.  If you ask my husband for the rest of this story, I’m sure he can entertain you for hours. Hurricane Matthew blew through the low-country, his entire proposal plan was destroyed, and he couldn’t reschedule the weekend because he had flown his folks in from Cleveland for a surprise Engagement Party.  I’ll have to share that story another time…

September 27, 2016

September 27, 2016

October 6, 2016

October 6, 2016

October 7, 2017

October 7, 2017

Almost exactly one year later, the BOLD emails in my inbox started flagging my mind, and I found myself cross-checking the dates on my calendar.  A few emails to the Mindbody team, a few pep talks convincing myself to go, and I was 90% sure I could make the conference happen.  I ran down the stairs sharing my enthusiasm for the potential trip with Patrick, and he looked right at me and said, “I’m in, but why do you want to go.”  It felt right in my gut, but Patrick likes to make decisions based on logic, and while it felt right, I had a hard time pinning a logical why.  The next day I got a message from an Atlanta based accounting company, Acuity, telling me about a contest they were running for an all-expense paid trip to BOLD - I entered the contest and forwarded it over to my husband hoping he would enter as well.  48 hours or so passed, and I got a message letting me know, “I’d won!!!”  In case there was any grey area left in my decision, it had been quieted. Big huge thank you's go out to Acuity; not only, for helping me make one of the easiest travel decisions of my life, but also for giving me the opportunity to listen to keynote speakers, Arianna Huffington & Magic Johnson.  I had an unforgettable time listening to leaders share words of wisdom, getting to know the Acuity Team, and diving into business conversation with my husband at the #BOLDConference.

Bold Handstands
#BOLDConference 2017

#BOLDConference 2017

The Unconditional Surrender Statue, San Diego, CA

The Unconditional Surrender Statue, San Diego, CA

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