Dinner date night in Hualalai, Hawaii

Dinner date night in Hualalai, Hawaii

It was a breezy night on our honeymoon in Hualalai, HI when I asked my husband how long he wanted to wait before having kids.  I knew we both wanted to have children within two years or so, but I was hoping he’d give me a more clear answer.  I was anxious for his response, and apprehensive he wouldn’t be up for the ‘let’s stop being careful’ approach I was ready to take.  I don’t remember his exact words; however, I remember the flood of emotions that overwhelmed me when he replied, “a year or two.”  I knew deep down, I was born to be a mom.  A few short weeks before our wedding I told Patrick, “I’ve wanted kids since I was five.”  When Patrick saw my face flush and my eyes well up with tears, he backtracked assuring me that he wanted to have kids soon. He looked at me and said, “You are going to be an amazing mom, and if we get pregnant in Hawaii, I will be okay with it.”

5 weeks pregnant, and we didn't even know - Beaufort, SC

5 weeks pregnant, and we didn't even know - Beaufort, SC

Two weeks after we got home from our honeymoon, Patrick and I were in Beaufort, SC with my parents when I realized my PMS symptoms were heightened, and I was four days late.  Luckily I had a leftover pregnancy test in my bedroom, I’m one of those people who takes a pregnancy test every time I’m late.  Without saying anything to Patrick, I snuck into the bathroom and took the pregnancy test. The first pink line appeared immediately, the second like a slow drumroll followed by a carnival bell after winning the high striker. Sitting in the bathroom with my little stick, thoughts rushed through my head, “How do I tell Patrick?,” “Can I call Avery and ask her?,” “What will Patrick think if we have a girl?”

The day before we took the pregnancy test-Beaufort, SC

The day before we took the pregnancy test-Beaufort, SC

Without overthinking it, I walked toward the doorway of my bedroom to find Patrick with bags tossed over his shoulders midway through loading our car. He sort of gestured that I was in his way, but I stood there like a statue, “My heart’s beating really fast.” Patrick said, “mine is too.” I looked at him and said, “No, feel my heart.”  He looked at me a bit perplexed, I pulled out the pregnancy test I had hiding behind my back, and I showed him two pink lines.  Patrick dropped the bags, wrapped me up in the tightest hug, and kissed my forehead. I looked at him through glassy eyes and saw the same glimmer in his, “We’re gonna be parents!”  

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