Keep Dreaming?

When was the last time you heard your Ego talking. Everyday, right. Remove yourself from the conversation; instead, take a front row seat watching yourself and your Ego duke it out. Sit back and smile, your soul is laughing. The you who is listening knows better.

I used to have a hard time going out of town. I’d weigh the what-ifs with the shoulda, woulda, couldas, and call up my mom to discuss pros and cons until ambivalence trumped interest. I’d wait until the last moment possible to choose black or white, hanging out in gray area until I was sweating indecision. I would analyze and over analyze; meanwhile, clinging to the possibility of staying and going. It was an illusion of control.

Then I realized, if I had to ask, I already knew the answer. As in, if I am asking you to help me make a decision, I am looking for reinforcement of gut feelings. I may nod my head in agreement or even try-on your advice, but it won’t take me long to wrestle with the pit in my stomach.

A few months ago, I purchased a ticket to attend the doTERRA Dream Convention and you better bet I was excited about it, until I wasn’t. Spending a couple days with 30,000 oil junkies, YES. Traveling cross-country with an 8 month old, NOT SO MUCH. After a challenging beach trip; wherein, I discovered my sweet angel was actually a beach-loathing monster, I thought to myself, what in the world have I gotten myself into. Enter denial.

Dream doTERRA Convention 2018

I promptly reached out to my Airbnb host hoping he’d tell me babies were not allowed in his condo so I’d have an easy out. No luck. Next, I mentioned to my mother that I was apprehensive in heading to DREAM (mind you, I had already convinced her to come with me and she had a plane ticket to boot). I was testing the waters. Bless my mother who gave me space to waiver indecisively as I attempted to get answers from my husband, friends, and neighbors; ultimately, phoning my favorite therapist for reassurance in making a decision I.e. acknowledging my intuition as truth.

Text Message Conversation

From the outside lookin in, I could sit back and say, “listen up, you already know,” but the struggle was real. It’s challenging to let go of what could be and embrace reality. To give up the illusion of control. No matter how long I held on, I couldn’t stay and go.

Have you ever opened your mouth and suddenly wanted to laugh at yourself? This was one of those moments. As I explain this entire scenario to my counselor, I’m in the passenger seat watching last weeks struggle unravel. I saw my desire to offset my decision, to blame it on an uncontrollable rather than myself, and I realized why I was hanging on, one foot in and one foot out. It was the big bad emotion creeping in, fear. I looked fear in the face, cancelled our arrangements, and said sayonara to analysis paralysis.

With the possibility of mind-changing out, a lighter attitude resurfaced. Am I disappointed, sure thing. Will it be hard to see photos of other mamas and babies with the iconic O, absolutely. Did I make the right decision, 100%. Trepidation was real. Hesitation was for a reason. This year, I will watch Convention online maybe even in my pajamas. You can even Watch DREAM with me.

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Carly Grace Milyo

Born in New York City,  Carly Grace grew up in Atlanta and graduated from The Westminster Schools.  Carly received her Bachelor of Science in Human Development, and graduated Summa Cum Laude from Virginia Tech in 2012. During her college career, Carly began practicing yoga as an escape from her intense ACC Cheerleading training. The rigor and requirements Carly upheld as an ACC athlete combined with the social expectations and action packed schedule expected of an Alpha Phi left Carly depleted both physically and mentally.  Before Carly found yoga, she used running, partying with friends, and restricting her diet to maintain a sense of control in her life. It was Carly's true desire to find more purposeful and authentic friendships and to invest her time in cultivating her greater well-being and spirituality that lead her to yoga. 

The creativity and physical challenge of yoga captivated and inspired Carly. Yoga was the first thing Carly practiced where the perfect-ten mentality was not required; in fact, perfection is the antithesis of yoga principles.  After hanging up her poms poms and retiring from her ACC Cheerleading career, Carly quickly found herself  invested in the In Balance Yoga Community in Blacksburg, VA.  With encouragement and affirmation from Studio Owner, Becky Crigger, Carly set out for New York City to train with Dana Trixie Flynn at Laughing Lotus Love Skool.

Yoga Alliance 200 E-RYT, Carly has studied and practiced with many influencers and teachers all over the United States.  Carly currently teaches Thunderbolt Power Yoga®;  a powerful alignment based vinyasa flow inspired by some of her greatest influencers including, Dana Trixie Flynn and Baron Baptiste.  Carly infuses creative ideas and sequencing into her classes. Her purpose as a teacher is to inspire people to move like themselves. Carly is committed to helping students be audaciously playful in both their practice and in their lives. 

You can catch Carly Grace teaching at her studio Thunderbolt Power Yoga, at off-site events such as the infamous FIT Yoga Series with Carly Grace at W Atl Buckhead, at music festivals, corporate conferences, and more!  Be sure to look out for Carly's quarterly Boombox Power Yoga® Class offered alongside a live DJ, accompanied by her pink boombox, and enhanced with a 16 inch disco ball. 

In the mean time, you can follow her adventures on instagram (@yoga__barbie) or give her a wave when you see her drive by in her infamous pink jeep!